Sex, Drugs and Fuck Ups

Warning: Boobies and a Nip Slip

Yesterday in my (prescribed) drug addled state I saw some beautiful and very sexy photos of Mel Clarke on Instagram and envisioned myself being able to sit and sketch her lovely form perfectly… But I am here to admit, I am pretty awful at realism! Let me take you back a little to explain…

Mel Clarke is a model that I stumbled across in my boyfriends Front Magazine. I think she is simply sensational, an innocent face and is always pulling the cutest playful poses. Which as a result, (lesbi-honest) inspires me to draw her!
Last year I tried to recreate an image of Mel, and as much as I did well on the shading and details, where I fuck up is with the proportions.

Why am I sharing this with you? I honestly don’t know. Maybe it is still the pain medication meddling with my sanity!
A part of me feels very fearful for doing this. But then you gotta feel the fear and do it anyway right?
Why would I be revealing my flaws to my readers, when surely I should be here selling myself to land a fantastic and exciting career in illustration? Well, I feel it is really important to share this. And be able to laugh about it!

Some artists use light boxes and copy directly from an image to set out their proportions, but I always felt like a cheat if I did this. Not that it is cheating, it is much more sensible to use this to get the basic outline than guess like me!
I am not very patient though, especially with myself. I don’t set out my guidelines at all, but I usually begin with the eyes as this is my favourite part to draw.


As cheesy as it may sound, they really do feel like the windows to our souls, and I love building up the smallest of details here first.
The eyes are where I find the true character in what I am creating, as their story forms in my mind while I look back into their face. But yes, it is very unfortunate I have a lack of patience, as this character I have built, ends up looking more like a bad attempt at a Picasso…

See the close up above of the first Mel Clarke I tried. I was very blessed to be offered some constructive advice / criticism on this, to better myself. However I decided to stay away from realism for a while and built my other strengths instead.

Then yesterday seemed like a good day to try to immortalize my favourite model again. I have these fabulous Verthin Prismacolors I wanted to practice with and felt that Mel was the perfect subject to use as reference. Here is where it all started…

I only used her facial features this time, then created the hair and rose by looking at Art Nouveau references on Pinterest.

It was really fun, and in the scheme of things that is all that really matters! But now, just look at her eyes…

I asked my boyfriend “Babs…does she look cross-eyed to you?”

Needless to say he was in pieces. LMFAO’ing all over the place. ROFLCOPTER and the like.
I felt so embarrassed, I was just hoping that it was due to the cocktail of pain med’s I am on post surgery that made me see it that way, but it seems yet again, I have made another wonky creation!
How did I not notice this? I am chuckling while writing this as now I can see it, I will never be able to unsee it!

There are some lessons in this… somewhere… I think.

  1. Be patient with yourself, and with your creations. Rome wasn’t built in a day etc…
  2. Don’t give up on what you love. Keep practising and challenging yourself!
  3. Laugh off and enjoy the mistakes, they will guide you right in time
  4. Don’t try anything new while feeling totally spazzed out on Codeine.
  5. Buy a light box and give up trying to be clever…

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I welcome any artistic guidance, please let me know your thoughts by leaving a comment below! Or give me a shout through my Contact Gabe page.

Here’s to trying again and again and again!

 

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