Art is my life. Such a cliché I know, but it is. I wake up motivated to get started on my next creative project, and go to sleep dreaming up how I can improve and expand my skills.
There was a time I would look forward to going shopping on a Saturday afternoon with my girlfriends, to buy gorgeous clothes, shoes and over priced costume jewellery to adorn for our drunken night outs together. These days I get the same buzz from embarking on an art supply shopping trip, to go back home where I will stay in my “comfies” for the whole weekend creating all sorts of wild and wonderful things!
I used to believe until very recently that I would never be able to make my creativity a money spinner. Seeing how many incredible artists there are out there, how could I ever compete and make a wage from it? I am still yet to find out…
However, a change has occurred within me.
I am now the proud owner of self belief and determination.
What triggered it I hear you ask?
I am facing possible redundancy from my present role in Order Management… a far cry from my dream career! I have been here for 4 years, and have become quite comfortable in my role and enjoy the familiarity of it all. Only when faced with it being taken away, was I pushed to recognise what I truly wanted and needed out of life. I have matured being in this role, blessed with wonderful colleagues and have faced some of my demons, including my fear of confrontation. Who knew I could deal with problems in a dignified manner rather than running from them? Not me! But I can now.
Step 1. Accepting I will never feel “ready” to make a huge change in my life, I just have to get on with it.
I will always fear it, but I don’t want the fear to stop me anymore. Instead I have chosen to embrace the fear, as a well-known quote advised me…
“Feel the fear and do it anyway”
It is terrifying putting your work out there, the fear of rejection is real and it personally haunts me. But I am prepared now to do whatever it takes and accept any criticism necessary to move forward.
To see inspiring stories of other artists out there making it happen for them has lit the fire within me. I want to be one of them too, and why can’t I? And why can’t you?
Each rejection I will take as a step into a better direction for me. It wont be easy! But I plan on keeping this blog running to record my experiences heading out there, and to hopefully give some useful advice to others embarking on a similar journey.
I will also be sharing other artists work I fall in love with, so please get in touch if you want to be featured!